Here I go again, writing my year-end post. I don’t know why, but this is really my favorite thing to write about; I mean, there’s something about looking back and reminiscing. If you have read my year-end post last year, you know that 2017 was the toughest year for me so far. 2017 was a year of anxiety and depression, downs and lows, and all the other feels I couldn’t explain. Last year, I was pretty emotional as I write my year-end post, but this year, I was just smiling the whole time I was writing this.
2018 was a year when I stood up for myself. I remembered claiming on New Year’s Eve that 2018 will be my year. I set that as my year’s mantra to help me think positively, and surprisingly, it worked. This year, I loved myself a little bit more, and owned my my self-worth and confidence; and when I discovered more about myself. I embraced being an adult and see the beauty of it. It wasn’t easy. It was actually hard, and it really hurts. I experienced a little bit of a rollercoaster ride, ups and downs, but I have found a better way to cope up with it. I was afraid to spread my wings and fall if I try to fly, for when I do, I always fail. But I still took the risk. I tried. I learned a lot this year, and I mature more. I was the woman who’s afraid to take a step forward, but now I’m walking my own runway. And for that allow me to say this… I AM VERY PROUD OF YOU, SELF.
It’s true that “the pain that you’ve been feeling can’t compare to that joy that’s coming”. God showered me so many blessings this year, after a stressful 2017. It’s true that we have to be grateful when God’s giving us challenges, because He is getting us ready for something great. We have to remember that life has always something good to offer and we must focus on the positive.
I am also very grateful to all the people who helped me get through my battle, and loved me even more. I couldn’t have made it without them by my side. I wasn’t sure if I could make it until tomorrow, but they believed in me.
You taught me so much, 2018, and you offer me hopes, faith, and opportunities. You allow me to find the strength I never knew I have, and as much as I still want to embrace you, I have to let you go now. I have to move forward and grow more. Nevertheless, I also can’t wait for 2019 because I have many plans for my life in general. One baby, but strong steps at a time. Let’s do this 2019!!! Happy New Year everyone. We can do this!